Lazing in the sun, letting the breeze play with my hair, and not having anything to do, any hurry or worry: my present state. Sure, there are things to do, like Spanish practice and laundry and cleaning. Yes, Community groups start tonight and this computer needs a new battery. But this day calls me to reflect and enjoy.
I went to a high school friend's wedding last night and it was lovely, so pretty and elegant, simple but wonderful. At this wedding were most of my high school band friends-- including my two high school exes (let's just assume everyone is from high school okay). Awkward you say? Maybe a bit.
Seeing everyone from high school made me think about my relationships to them as well as how I've changed since then. I would love to go back and tell high-school-Cait to not be such a fraidy-nerd and live life fully! That she is smart, talented, and beautiful and needs to be more concerned on building her friendships rather than her resume. High-school-Cait was a fairly cold, reserved girl with more thoughts than feelings and more eco tendencies than love tendencies. I hope I have grown since then and moved beyond the girl who forced dating relationships to happen while abandoning her friends, the girl who made life work her way rather than learn to go with the ebbing tides. I dance more now. I take my shoes off and run around soccer fields. God has poured blessing on me as I learned to give more to him and take on less of my own life.
And, of course, I have learned to fly with dragons.
But that is another story.